Alright,
I admit. I slacked off again. I have been half-assing Weight Watchers since my last post in November. I have been counting points for a week here, and a few days there. Exercise has become nonexistant. The last meeting I attended was right before Christmas.
Last week I counted points for 4 days. I didn't count towards the end of the week because I got snowed in, and I let that be a (very poor) excuse.
For some reason, I woke today thinking about taking some "before" pictures. Woah buddy...let's just say I took them, but I can't bring myself to edit and post them because I want to vomit. Even at this weight, I don't normally mind being photographed.
"What's wrong with today's pictures, you ask?" I took some in a bra and panties, some in too-small shorts with a bra, and some in the shorts and a too-small shirt. The reason for the too-small clothes was so that I can do nice comparison shots down the line. I'm thinking that I will just hide the pictures away on my computer until I'm ready to do a comparison shot, then I'll be fine. :)
Today was a snow day from work, but I will be going tomorrow. There is a meeting at 6:30pm so my plan is to: 1) Go to work. 2) Go to Wal-Mart and buy an iPod Touch. 3) Go to the meeting and face the scale. 4) Come home, have a healthy dinner, and download WW mobile.
It sounds like a great plan, now I just need to stick to it.
Throughout the course of my half-assed WW hiatus, I have managed to try some great new products and recipes so I will start sharing those soon.
Cheers to recommitting yet again!
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Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Must I look in the mirror to get a reflection?
Background Stats:
Weight Watchers Start Date: Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Start Age: 19
Start Weight: 176 pounds
Lowest Weight: 140.8 pounds
Must I look in the mirror to get a reflection?
-My two year Weight Watchers anniversary was Friday, August 14, 2009. I remember my very first meeting like it was yesterday. I remember I was wearing rolled up jeans because I was too fat for my capri pants. I took my mom with me...I joined as soon as I walked through the door, and she just sat in on the meeting. I came home that day and followed the plan immediately. I had great success losing, and was down 35 pounds by the end of the year. I felt great, looked great, and had the highest self-esteem I had ever had.
How does that compare to now?
-Fast forward...today I shamefully admit that I am almost exactly back to the person I was when I first began Weight Watchers. Unofficially, I saw 176 on the bathroom scale this morning. I am wearing size 14 pants once again. I am struggling with bras, because the cup runneth over on some. I look bloated. I have difficulty sleeping and sitting because my belly protrudes. Despite all of those unflattering aspects, there are a few things I kept from my "skinny version." I still have some self confidence. It is more about knowing I am a genuine good person than confidence about my body, but this is still a step above the old "fat version." I still also know that I am strong enough to make this journey. Truthfully, I hurt every day because of my weight. Excess weight is as much a physical battle as it is a mental battle. I am uncomfortable and disappointed in myself.
What got in the way?
-The only reason I gained weight back is because I let myself. I have made excuses. I convinced myself that work, socializing, and dating were higher on my priority list than healthy eating and weight management. I found little reasons to skip the gym, whether it be a little overtime at work, or wanting to eat dinner with my family. I accept that my actions (or lack of actions for that matter) are the main cause of my weight relapse. However, I do question a medicine I have been taking since May 2008. I feel that it has contributed to some of my weight gain, but this is not proven. I am not able to quit taking the medicine, so hopefully I can overcome its' side effect. Medications are a legitimate, although unwanted reason, for weight gain; excuses are not.
What I can I do to remedy the situation?
-I am changing my habits effective immediately. I know how to properly nourish my body with water, whole grains, dairy, protein, fruit, vegetables, and healthy oil. I know I should limit alcohol and sugar. I know that exercise is important. I know these things, yet I have not been practicing them. That is changing now. I am determined to follow the Weight Watchers plan. I know that it works, and I will be successful. In fact, I am using a coping tool from the program: Positive Thinking/Self-Talk.
Out With the Old, In With the New...Cheers to a New Beginning
There it is folks, the honest truth about where I am two years after beginning my Weight Watchers journey. I am ashamed, unhappy, and frustrated, but I am also accepting, knowledgable, and prepared. I will not give up. My long-term goal is to lose right around 50 pounds. My short-term goal is to take control of my eating in each individual day. I am taking this journey one day at a time.
-Tracy
Weight Watchers Start Date: Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Start Age: 19
Start Weight: 176 pounds
Lowest Weight: 140.8 pounds
Must I look in the mirror to get a reflection?
-My two year Weight Watchers anniversary was Friday, August 14, 2009. I remember my very first meeting like it was yesterday. I remember I was wearing rolled up jeans because I was too fat for my capri pants. I took my mom with me...I joined as soon as I walked through the door, and she just sat in on the meeting. I came home that day and followed the plan immediately. I had great success losing, and was down 35 pounds by the end of the year. I felt great, looked great, and had the highest self-esteem I had ever had.
How does that compare to now?
-Fast forward...today I shamefully admit that I am almost exactly back to the person I was when I first began Weight Watchers. Unofficially, I saw 176 on the bathroom scale this morning. I am wearing size 14 pants once again. I am struggling with bras, because the cup runneth over on some. I look bloated. I have difficulty sleeping and sitting because my belly protrudes. Despite all of those unflattering aspects, there are a few things I kept from my "skinny version." I still have some self confidence. It is more about knowing I am a genuine good person than confidence about my body, but this is still a step above the old "fat version." I still also know that I am strong enough to make this journey. Truthfully, I hurt every day because of my weight. Excess weight is as much a physical battle as it is a mental battle. I am uncomfortable and disappointed in myself.
What got in the way?
-The only reason I gained weight back is because I let myself. I have made excuses. I convinced myself that work, socializing, and dating were higher on my priority list than healthy eating and weight management. I found little reasons to skip the gym, whether it be a little overtime at work, or wanting to eat dinner with my family. I accept that my actions (or lack of actions for that matter) are the main cause of my weight relapse. However, I do question a medicine I have been taking since May 2008. I feel that it has contributed to some of my weight gain, but this is not proven. I am not able to quit taking the medicine, so hopefully I can overcome its' side effect. Medications are a legitimate, although unwanted reason, for weight gain; excuses are not.
What I can I do to remedy the situation?
-I am changing my habits effective immediately. I know how to properly nourish my body with water, whole grains, dairy, protein, fruit, vegetables, and healthy oil. I know I should limit alcohol and sugar. I know that exercise is important. I know these things, yet I have not been practicing them. That is changing now. I am determined to follow the Weight Watchers plan. I know that it works, and I will be successful. In fact, I am using a coping tool from the program: Positive Thinking/Self-Talk.
Out With the Old, In With the New...Cheers to a New Beginning
There it is folks, the honest truth about where I am two years after beginning my Weight Watchers journey. I am ashamed, unhappy, and frustrated, but I am also accepting, knowledgable, and prepared. I will not give up. My long-term goal is to lose right around 50 pounds. My short-term goal is to take control of my eating in each individual day. I am taking this journey one day at a time.
-Tracy
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